What must be to said
to men ?
(Letter to General X,
written the day before his death)
Just had a few flights
on P.38. It's a nice machine. I would have been happy to have this present for
my 20th birthday. I note with melancholy that today, at forty three years old,
after some six thousand five hundred hours of flight under all the skies of the
world, I can no longer find great pleasure in this game. It is no more than an
instrument of displacement - here of war. If I submit to speed and altitude at
my patriarchal age for this job, it is much more to refuse nothing of the
hassles of my generation than in the hope of rediscovering the satisfactions of
yesteryear.
This may be
melancholic, but perhaps it is not. It was probably when I was twenty that I
was wrong. In October 1940, returning from North Africa where the 2 - 33 group
had emigrated, my car being stored bloodless in some dusty garage, I discovered
the cart and the horse. By her the grass of the paths. Sheep and olive trees.
These olive trees had another role than that of beating time behind the windows
at 130 km per hour. They showed themselves in their true rhythm which is to
slowly make olives. The sheep did not have the exclusive purpose of bringing
down the average. They came alive again. They made real poop and made real
wool. And the grass also had a meaning because they grazed it.
And I felt alive again
in this only corner of the world where the dust is fragrant (I am unfair, it is
in Greece as well as in Provence). And it seemed to me that all my life I had
been a fool...
All this to explain to
you that this gregarious existence in the heart of an American base, these
meals sent standing up in ten minutes, this back and forth between 2600
horsepower single-seaters in an abstract building where we are crammed three to
a room, this terrible human desert, in a word, has nothing that caresses my
heart. That too, like the missions without profit or hope of return of June
1940, is a disease to pass. I am "sick" for an unknown time. But I do
not recognize the right not to suffer from this disease. That is all. Today I
am deeply sad. I am sad for my generation which is empty of all human
substance. Who having only known bars, mathematics and Bugattis as a form of
spiritual life, today finds himself immersed in a strictly gregarious action
that no longer has any color.
We don't know how to notice
it. Take the military phenomenon of a hundred years ago. Consider how much
effort he incorporated to respond to the spiritual, poetic, or simply human
life of man. Today we are more desiccated than bricks, we smile at this
nonsense. The costumes, the flags, the songs, the music, the victories (there
is no victory today, there are only phenomena of slow or rapid digestion) all
lyricism sounds ridiculous and the men refuse to be awakened to some spiritual
life. They honestly do some kind of assembly line work. As the American youth
says, "we honestly accept this thankless job" and the propaganda, all
over the world, fights its flanks in despair.
From Greek tragedy,
humanity, in its decadence, has fallen to the theater of Mr. Louis Verneuil (we
can hardly go further). Century of publicity, of the Beadeau system, of
totalitarian regimes and armies without bugles or flags or masses for the dead.
I hate my time with all my might. The man is dying of thirst.
Ah! General, there is
only one problem, only one in the world. To restore to men spiritual meaning,
spiritual worries, rain down on them something like a Gregorian chant. You
can't live on fridges, politics, balance sheets and crossword puzzles, you see!
We can no longer live without poetry, color or love. Just hearing a village
song from the 15th century, you can measure the slope down. Nothing remains but
the voice of the propaganda robot (pardon me). Two billion people no longer
hear anything but robots, understand only robots, become robots.
All the cracks of the
last thirty years have only two sources: the impasses of the 19th century
economic system and spiritual despair. Why did Mermoz follow his grand booby
colonel if not out of thirst? Why Russia? Why Spain? Men have tried out
Cartesian values: outside the natural sciences, they have hardly succeeded.
There is only one problem, only one: to rediscover that there is a life of the
spirit even higher than the life of intelligence, the only one that satisfies
man. It goes beyond the problem of religious life, which is only one form of it
(although perhaps the life of the spirit necessarily leads to the other). And
the life of the spirit begins where a being is designed above the materials of
which it is composed. The love of home - that unknowable love in the United
States - is already of the life of the spirit.
And the village
festival, and the cult of the dead (I quote this because two or three
paratroopers have been killed since my arrival here, but they were evaded: they
had finished their service). That is from the era, not from America: man no
longer has any meaning.
You absolutely have to
talk to men.
What will be the use
of winning the war if we have a hundred years of revolutionary epileptic fits?
When the German question is finally settled all the real problems will begin to
arise. It is unlikely that speculation on American stocks will be enough to
emerge from this war to distract, as in 1919, humanity from its real worries.
For lack of a strong spiritual current, it will grow, like mushrooms, thirty-six
sects which will divide one another. Marxism itself, too old, will break down
into a multitude of contradictory neo-Marxisms. We have seen it in Spain.
Unless a French Caesar installs us in a concentration camp for eternity.
Ah! what a strange
evening, tonight, what a strange climate. I see from my room the windows of
these faceless buildings light up. I hear the various radio stations blasting
out their mirliton music to these idle crowds who have come from beyond the
seas and who do not even know nostalgia.
This resigned
acceptance can be confused with the spirit of sacrifice or moral greatness.
That would be a big mistake. The bonds of love that tie today's man to beings
as well as to things are so loose, so sparse, that man no longer feels absence as
in the past. This is the terrible word of this Jewish story: "So you are
going there? How far you will be" - Far from where? The "where"
they left was little more than a vast bundle of habits.
In this age of
divorce, one divorces things with the same facility. The fridges are
interchangeable. And the house too if it is only an assembly. And the woman.
And religion. And the party. One cannot even be unfaithful: what would one be
unfaithful to? Far from where and unfaithful to what? Human desert.
How wise and peaceful
are these men in groups. I think of the Breton sailors of yesteryear, who
disembarked, unleashed on a city, of those complex knots of violent appetites
and intolerable nostalgia that have always been formed by males who are a
little too severely penned up. In order to hold them, it was always necessary
to have strong policemen or strong principles or strong faiths. But none of
those would disrespect a goose girl. The man of today is made to keep quiet,
depending on the environment, with belote or bridge. We
are surprisingly well neutered.
So we are finally
free. Our arms and legs were cut off, then we were left free to walk. But I
hate this time when man becomes, under a universal totalitarianism, gentle,
polite and quiet cattle. We are made to take this for moral progress! What I
hate in Marxism is the totalitarianism to which it leads. Man is defined there
as producer and consumer, the essential problem being that of distribution.
This is the man of today.
And I think that, not three hundred years ago, one could write "The Princess of Cleves" or lock oneself up in a convent for life because of a lost love, love was so burning. Today, of course, people commit suicide, but the suffering of these is of the order of an intolerable toothache. It has nothing to do with love.
Certainly it is a first step. I cannot bear the idea of pouring generations of French children into the belly of the German moloch. The substance itself is threatened, but when it is saved, then the fundamental problem of our time will arise. Which is that of the meaning of man and to which there is no answer offered, and I have the impression of walking towards the darkest times in the world.
I don't mind being killed in war. Of what I loved, what will remain? As much as human beings, I am talking about customs, irreplaceable intonations, a certain spiritual light. Lunch in the Provençal farm under the olive trees, but also Handel. Things. I don't care, who will remain. What is valid is a certain arrangement of things. Civilization is an invisible good since it bears not on things, but on the invisible bonds which tie them together, thus and not otherwise. We will have perfect musical instruments, mass-produced, but where will the musician be? If I'm killed in war, I don't care. Or if I suffer a fit of rage from these sorts of flying torpedoes which no longer have anything to do with flight and make the pilot among his buttons and dials a sort of chief accountant (flight is also a certain order of links).
But if I come back alive from this "necessary and thankless job", only one problem will arise for me: what can, what should be said to men?
July 30, 1944
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